FROM DUMB ASSHOLE TO COOL MAN: A MATURING OF UNIFIEDCHUNK i first joined dump.fm my senior year in high school. i matured a little but was still a pathetic, depressed person looking for validation. i wasn’t finding it in my school so i looked online. i managed to find dump.fm somehow. i can’t even remember if i even fit in well then, but i seemed to manage there. i tried to fit in to dump.fm. ultimately, i think i failed.
looking back, i would say that my skin was too thin. i couldn’t roll with the punches and, to put it in youtuber terms, i was cringey. i felt like i wasn’t fitting in so i self-sabotaged myself, embarrassing myself at every turn. at one point, i was even banned for a month. my bitterness made me think it was some cool kids’ table, but i was just some dumbass kid annoying everyone.
i got out of the dump scene for a while. i studied filmmaking in durham, north carolina. i matured a great deal and living in durham made me think about my own bullshit. my own neurosis. anxieties and scars from failed relationship (one of which was emotionally abusive by a woman much older than me but that’s for another time). it gave me a great amount of self-awareness.
i kept in contact with some of the dump people. waves being a big one. kintrala, while we don’t really talk or anything, i’m still happy to be in contact with her. i was invited to join the dampfam facebook group for old dump users, since dump.fm shut down for some reason. i was happy to see that i was invited to this group; that they still remembered me and wanted me there.
much later, i joined bogchat. i was able to restart in a way. instead of unifiedchunk, i am now simply “chunk.” i felt like i was able to gel better within this community, even though it’s more or less the same as before. i now have a sense of humor. i’m able to roll with the punches and am now able to laugh at the asshole i was in dump.
i don’t know if any of this sounds genuine or if i just made myself sound like a total robot person, but i really am happy to be part of bog now. i feel like i’m already making some good friends here and i hope to continue being a part of this great community…unless i have another nervous breakdown and post an image of my dick to bog in order to get laughs.