'how do i?how do i?how do i?how do i?how do i?how doi?how do i?how do i?how do i?how do i?' is the most maddening of riddles
(how do i relax?) (how do i learn to pay attention?) (how do i think for myself?)
similarly, once during a stay at the adolescent psychiatric ward, a nurse called me "anal" and i was hugely offended. in retrospect? she was absolutely on the money